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diri masayon it aton kabutangan
hasta yana, nagkukuri la gihap ako pag adjust.
pero bisan pa magharayo kita,
hihigugmaon ko la gihap ikaw.
bisan pa makuri it at komunikasyon,
magiging faithful la gihap ako ha imo.
iilubon ko ini, diri ako mamimiling hin iba.
maghuhulat ako hasta umabot it adlaw
na makasapit ako ha im utro,
makaptan ko tim kamot ngan nawong,
mahangkupan ko ikaw,
makaharok ako ha im balik.
makit-an ka nga natawa
mabatian it im tingog.
kun ikaw man nagkukuri gihap hit sugad hini
ayaw kabaraka kay aadi la ako pirmi..
diri mawawara, diri ka babayaan.
pirmi naton hihigugmaon it usat usa
pirmi naton iintindihon it tagsa tagsa
diri kita mapaperdi bisan kan kanay
diri kita mapaperdi bisan pa hini nga distansya
aton ipakita ha ira na bisan
milya milya it at kaharayo,
it gugma.. diri mawawara, makusog pa lugod.
it akon la unta ginhahangyo ha Ginoo
na diri ka niya pabay-an hito dida nga lugar
nga unta pirmi maupay it imo kabutangan.

mahal.. dadi ko…
hihigugmaon ko ikaw
tikang han nagyakan ako ha im hin “i love you”
hasta mawarayan na ko hangin na hihing.gukon.
so what kun corny it ma inlove?
it’s the greatest feeling one will ever feel man liwat, diba dadi?
malipayon ako kay ikaw tak ginhihigugma.
we’ll stay strong forever. PROMISE.
i love you.

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he is not the ideal knight that you see and hear in every fairy tales.

he is not also the typical hero that saves everytime you need help.



he is just an extraordinary man who loves to fool around and would sometimes tend to laugh at your big busy ass. he leaves you alone every so often for you to have a time to think on your own, for you to learn to be independent. but he's different from what you expect that a stupid guy would do. he may be tactless, lavish, feme and the likes but this white monkey takes really good care of my crazy heart. he loves truly and he sees no mistakes. he may be impatient and cruel but he's the best man i've ever met. he limits nothing and forgives wholly i love him just the way he is. he may be imperfect but at least he's honest at about everything. hides nothing and tells everything. i hope my knight in shining armor will never change and would still continue loving me after our 3 years of physical separation. i'll be missing him a lot.

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[  Mood: Happy ]

something for you to see before you leave...

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M still in love with you and i'll continue loving you till the 30th day of feb.

everything happened so fast.....
the first day you texted me, i replied.
the first time i saw you, i was amazed.
the first time you made me smile, my heart jumped.
the first time we hanged out, i enjoyed.
the first time we ate together, i was full.
the first time you held my hands, it felt warm.
the first time you touched my face, i felt comfortable.
the first time you cuddled me, i felt belongingness.
the first time you kissed my lips, i felt love.
the first time you said "i love you", i flew like a wind.

and now you're leaving.... but not for good.
still i'd be missing everything we've loved and hated,
everything we shared and disagreed upon.
i'll be waiting for you.
i hope you'll stay as good as what you already are right now.
i hope you'd still be loving me.

dadi... M always telling you this and i'll say this to you again... you're more than what you mean to me.
everything you are is everything to me.
nothing and no one can make me smile the way that you do to me.
i love you today.. i'll love tomorrow... i love you forever.

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do you have any idea of how much i love you? you don't...? well.. i love you for the zth time. i'll love you till you find a 30th on february. haaaaaaaayyyyyyyy dadi. i love you today. i love you tomorrow. i love you forever. inseparable tayong dalawa. :*

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[  Mood: Amused ]

i made a great uh.. poem (?) hehe.. it just came out of the blue.. M bored and got nothin to do.. M supposed to be busy but daym.. for it, i've got no time.. hehe.. anyway, juz have a seat and read it..


they said that rain is but a blessing
pero hira la ito it nasiring
waray ko light nga nakikitan
coz of course, there's no sun
my mind is struggling
kun anu tak igsisiring
bisan ngan it pagsurat
i might as well catch a rat
haha! it makes me laugh
ngan balitaw baga na ako hin badaf
hehe.. tawa la bisan
it feels so good to have a fan
M rocking my chair
pero waray ko pa nakukuha nga share
sige tak ubo... "uho,uho"
bless me if this is like so
M f*ckin bored
siguro makapot nala ako hin surod
hahaha! sige tawa na liwat
it's as if you're asking "what?!"
konek nga waray nakikitan
hala may nagtxt gintawag ako hin "hon"
it feels so good
to have someone to treat you like a food
anay daw, panhunahuna
kakan o pa naging maupay it it gin kakaon ka?
i think i have to stop this nonsense
coz it feels like M runnin' out of sense
sige sunod nala
kun maglibog na liwat an ulo han bata





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see what drugs can do?

marixo baya.. M proud of myself..

linurong na liwat





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i just wonder why people ask advices from others when in fact it's their decision that matters..

in the end, what the crowd have said won't matter anymore..

i may be one of them.. i don't know.. who cares anyway..

and if i am.. we're soooo pathetic.. we've got brains but don't know hot to use it.. a sad reality..

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there are some things that must be left unsaid.. i wonder why

some persons pretend to be all right but in fact they're not (diri ako nin ha)..

someone told me that everything's gonna be just fine.. but why.. haaay..

why is he like that?

what's my fault? hmmn..

didn't he told me that everything's back to normal already?

M i being erratic or what?

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manhihinumdom nala ako hin mga butang nga duha la ka tawo it maaram.. hehe.. para mawara tak confusion..

anu it konek hit paniki ngan wakwak? hehe.. buang.. nayaknan ka daw hin kakan o pa naging wakwak it paniki? LoL..

humiling ak ha langit kagab i.. waray ko man nakitan nga mga stars.. hain daw la an big ngan small dipper? haaay..

an hamster? nim pagkita buhi pa adto? amo udog ito kay ginyayaknan ka nga matmbok na hi chuchu baga ka la hin waray.. PIDK udog..

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karagbuot.. damo tak nahihinumduman.. hahah! tigda la nin sumulod nak huna-huna yana.. hahah! lagad nga nautot.. patindog tas maalsa it right leg.. heheh! hagee nga pagkatawo.. musta ka na daw la? miss ko na ikaw.. diri mo man ako gin aasi.. nagkita kita kakulop baga waray mo man ak asiha (baga liwat ako hin nangasi).. hmmn.. nag iiwasay ba kita? keanu?

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haaay masumo.. bagan ok na tanan tas matigda nala nga mabalik ha dati.. kasumo.. keanu ka nagsusugad? salaan la ba gihap ako?

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hehe.. 5 fingers..

thumb - people close to you
pointing finger - those who teach, healers
middle finger - leaders
ring finger - weakest
smallest finger - me

i learned that when i went to church last sunday.. hehe.. yiihii.. nasimba na ko.. nagbabagong buhay.. hehe.. basta amo na ton..


hmmn.. 5 steps

denial - cant accept things
anger - hatred towards yourself and the others
bargain - i do this and that in exchange of something
depression - major sadness
acceptance - eventually move on

hmmn.. someone told me na dapat ko umagi ton nga mga butang to.. well.. eventually move on.. hmmn.. i wonder why.. i mean, do i really have to hate others in order for me to move one? hmmn.. pero yakan pa man nak soulmate.. you can live w/o hating.. gumawas ako hin waray hito.. so mabubuhi ako hin waray hito.. hehe.. aight?


kalokohan? hmmn.. buang tak inay.. pakianhan ba naman ako hin.. "day, kun mamatay ako yana dayon.. anu tim igyayakan ha ak?" palurong nga tawo.. pero seriously.. kinulba ko han nagyakan hiya hadto ha ak.. nakayakan ngahaw ako hin.. "maaram ka, before ka pa mamatay.. patay na ko".. ayos daw anu nak baton.. kanan waray respeto nga anak.. di ko la liwat gusto nga manabo ton.. just like what i told her.. M going to die first.. duh! masakit ada it makikit an mo nga babayaan ka na tim minamahal.. so gabay ako it mag una.. hmmn.. i sound selfsish na liwat anu..? pero anu man.. amo talaga ko ton.. yakan pa man ni barbie.. "as i'll ever be".. malas talaga tak mom ha akon.. suwail.. black sheep.. halos tanan ada nga malain nahimo ko na iya.. hahay.. san o daw la ko magbubuutan? meada ko man baton iya pakiana.. problema la.. nahadlok ko pagyakan ha iya.. i mean.. naawod.. yakan pa man niya.. nahimo na liwat ako hin way nga di kami maging close.. nahadlok la ada ako.. ngan diri ako maaram keanu.. kadako tak problema.. LoL.. dako kuno.. ako ngan lat nakasamok amo nga na dako.. hahum..


adi pa usa nga kalokohan.. buang gud tak sangkay.. yaknan ba naman ko nga M suffering from paranoia.. hmmn.. am i? atah ngahaw di ak maaram.. maybe yes.. maybe no.. ah! who cares anyway! paranoia la ton.. i1 get over it..


adi pa usa (LoL.. mabanat la ko samtang may ibabanat pa.. bangin last na.. )

kalokohan gihap.. soulmates gud man kami tak soulmate.. kun anu na nanabo ha iya.. amo gihap na nanabo ha ak.. i wonder why.. cursed ada kami nga mga kabataan.. (LoL.. bata.. hingan lady na ko) anyway, basta.. sana swertihon hiya kan ciamee.. char.. para swertihon gihap ako tak studies.. hehe.. hageee ini.. matrabaho na ako.. makapoi na pagskwela! anu bat gamit hit fil, eng ngan iba pa nga sub tak course? my goodness.. atoot.. magulang nga mga nursing schools.. para ira kohida dako.. buang.. kun pwede daw lak maging nurse hin di na swela.. ta badaw.. maiha na.. (tah.. naghinmbog na liwat an buang..) kadamo nala tak reklamo tak kinabuhi.. amo iton iday nga di ka natubo kay di ka nababaro.. tsk, tsk..

anyways.. anyways..

tah! tah!

mbalik nala ko kun san o ko free.. hehe..

HAPPY new year..



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wish ko this year.. sana purupadayon tak naffeel nga happiness.. hehe..

new years resoln.. BE HAPPY!

advance hapi V-day.. LoL..

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Got so many stories to tell…

Yesterday was a GREAT day.. I really had a great time with the guyz although I wasn’t expecting that I will.. I had a good laugh, a good smile, a good talk, and most especially – a good time.. Everything was ALMOST perfect only that I wasn’t with the guy I used to be with..

We had a pool party yesterday.. just havin’ a lil’ get together with my ol’ pals and.. I wish HE was there.. but I know that it’ll NEVER happen again.. It MAY happen but with another man.. (who knows.. I might fall in love the third time around..)

I had a small talk with one of my best bud.. she told me that he hates me coz I made a fool out of myself.. she also told me that she misses how my former guy and I used to be in love and happy with each other.. and she even asked me a question that goes, “so anu man ces? Anu man tim naffeel yana? Anu tim naffeel yana nga nagdecide ka nga magstop paghulat ha iya?”.. it actually took me some time before answering her question.. maybe because I BARELY know what to do right now.. but nevertheless, I managed to give her a not-so-straight-to-the-point answer.. I told her that I still love him.. but I wanna hate him same as I want him to hate me, too.. I want HIM to do something that could make me mad at him and.. hate him FOREVER.. I just wanna get over with things FAST.. I know that it’s the wrong wish (let’s just call it that way) and I know that I sound like a “sorry-but-I’ve-got-no-choice” person but M afraid.. M afraid to take that better choice.. M even afraid to take a step at it.. I mean, I’ve been into too much this year and I think I already had enough so what’s the use of getting hurt again? Yeah, yeah.. I sound like a kid.. but what can I do.. I really AM afraid.. M a coward.. and FYI.. hinay-hinay IS makapoy.. masakit.. and plainly masumo.. diri pa naman ako patient.. pero.. diri ngan hiya mahangit ha ak or diri gihap ak mahangit ha iya.. ok la.. as long as I get over with things FAST...

Pero M afraid of what my bestfriend will tell me.. kay bungaw udog gihap ito nga pagkalalaki.. he’s one of my reasons why M waiting.. kato.. gusto ada nga malurong ako.. joking aside.. I guess he’ll understand.. HE’s my BESTFRIEND.. so, maka intindi gad ito.. and he’s not the boss of me anyway! I mean, what’s in store if I’ll wait? I bet there’s nothing.. yakan pa man “spell A-S-A”.. usa pa, they’re already married.. gabay ak mamiling hin iba nga lalaki instead of makisamok.. so, keanu ko kakaragan it ira ngan akon oras? Let’s all get merry!

But hey, inasaw-an naman gihap ako.. LoL.. yana la ak nakasabot.. demonyo gud man liwat ako.. He’d been my partner in life for almost 17years now.. yana la ko nakabantay.. kato gud liwat.. M glad He’s ALWAYS there..

Anu ba ini? Hiya na liwat it sulod tak blog.. pero ok la.. I hope last na ini nga ak post bout ha IYA..

Anyway, adi nala it basaha..

I’ve seen so many people dazed by the idea of romance, believing they’re not complete unless they find someone to make their lives whole. When you think about it, isn’t that a crazy notion? You, alone, make a whole person. and if you feel incomplete, you alone must fill yourself with love in all your empty, shattered space..

Uu, maulol ngan makarangit huna hunaon it FACT nga sugad NA hira hito pero ako sugad PA LA hini.. pero, that’s how it goes.. anyway M happy with what and who I have right now.. I may not have someone MORE special than my family pero.. I guess.. that’s enough for now.. at least I got the chance to be with him for more than a year ngan sobra-sobra na adto..

Jealousy, hatred and envy – things that a broken person must feel.. pero I never felt those things.. anger uu.. before.. and M glad I felt that kay If I didn’t I wouldn’t be happy by now.. pero hatred? Nah.. disappointment pwede pa.. M disappointed of what I did and what OTHERS did.. pero ok la.. we’re all even.. at least no one gets the blame.. for now (I think….?)

Well, they’re right.. M acting like a kid.. M turning 17 next year pero M still doing this stuffs.. dapat lady na ko.. sala ko liwat.. amo udog ito Cecile.. na diri ka hin pakiana ngan busa pero look at what you’ve done? Di ka pa? natambakan ka daw hin pakiana ngan natagan ka daw hin usa ka kalibutan nga busa! You deserve it para ka liwat tumubo.. if you really wanted to be happy han una pa.. dapat naghuna huna ka.. but you know what ces? M proud of you.. M proud of you in the sense nga for the FIRST time.. nakag decide ka hin imo la.. nakag decide ka nga happy ka.. and M glad I am.. (LoL.. makigstorya ba naman hit kalugaringon??! Kamakaluluoy nga bata)

Balitaw anu? DAPAT na kami nga tulo mag storya.. or if diri man kami nga tulo.. kami nga duha.. para la matapos nat tanan.. kay I bet ginkakapoy na gihap hira nga duha.. I mean.. hinu ba naman it gusto makig debate for a lifetime? Waray di ba! Di pa naman ak hit makarit.. and actually.. diri la kami nga tulo it ginkakapoy.. pati tam mga kasangkayan.. sensya.. nagmulay la an mga kabataan.. hehe.. seriously, storya kita personal before 2007 starts.. I mean, I want to start another year nga maupay and may peace of mind ako.. and I bet you guyz want a piece of peace gihap..

Ayaw kita nganhi pagsabot kay vulgar na liwat.. tat mga hitsura na ddiscover na.. seriously talking.. I txt nala ako before 2007 para maayos na tanan.. ngan busy kasi ako next year.. MT, FT and defense.. my gosh! Harani na tam defense.. mag aanu daw la ako?? Di gad unta kami mag daog.. saktuhay na ha ak it 1.6 nga grade! (LoL.. pumili ba naman hin grado??) pero balitaw.. Lord, please.. please makadamo.. ayaw kami.. di baya ko makarit.. M juz a nobody.. char.. di ko gusto batunon it mga pakiana nira dr. lim, mrs. Salvatiera ngan sister president! Mag iininglis pa gud ako hito dapat.. anu tak laban? I might as well disappear kun kami it magdaog.. nahadlok la talaga ako.. sensya..

Anyway, basta text nala.. wish me luck ngean for tomorrow.. meada ko blind date.. mga lurong nga mga kabarkada! Manlalayas nala nganhi ha tacloban meada pa pabalon.. pero sige la ton.. who knows? Hiya na.. LoL.. naninindog tak barahibo.. alagat hiya na.. di ka nalulurong iday?!

Uhm.. message la ha iyo tanan..

Mga friends ko nga naapektuhan nak panamok:
M sori.. pasarawayon na liwat ako nga bata.. pero I promise.. next year, LADY na ko.. diri na ko girl.. sorry utro.. sorry for the damage I brought you..

Kan geselle:
Sorry.. naging harsh ako nak mga words.. uncontrollable gud la liwat tak baba.. sorry gihap han panamok.. you always tell me nga you’re not mad or anything.. ok la.. pero magssorry la ko.. I mean.. I cost you a lot.. ngan sana di mo ko batunon hin “sorry doesn’t pay”.. hehe.. (LoL.. napili hin baton..) pero seriously.. sorry talaga.. and thank you.. thank you for your words.. though an iba masakit pero ALL of it taught me something.. and I think.. that’s GROWING up.. thanks.. and I hope tawagon mo ko utro hin mana just like you used to call me before..

Kan marciano:
Sorry gihap for telling you some STUPID lines.. those were just from a losers mouth.. sorry.. and uhm, sorry.. sorry talaga.. han panamok.. han gubot.. ngan han TANAN.. and uh, THANK YOU.. you taught me kasi a LOT of things.. well, your girl did taught me how to grow up pero you taught me how to grow while M still a kid.. you taught me not to be afraid that’s why M here telling you this.. basta thank you tanan.. maaram ako malain tak batasan ngan makuri talaga ito bag-uhon pero at least you managed to get along with me.. thank you han pag ilob.. and thanks for the memories.. the good and the bad ones.. M going to treasure it forever... thanks..


Anyway.. I hope maging ok na tanan before mag end it year.. New Year’s resolution? Hehe.. dida na ito hit 31 hit gab-i..


Thank you guyz

Have a nice day and God Bless